— is a cinematographer. She enjoys directing, dancing and music. In her works, she explores the Yiddish dance gesture. Dance is one of her favorite things and is exactly a tool for maintaining a mental state.
I was born in Borisov and, for better or worse, I live there. It is a district center, the center of the largest district in the Minsk region. During the peaceful protests in Belarus, it turned to be extremely difficult to live not just "outside of Minsk", but even in its complete opposite— in a quiet city "where nothing ever happens."
It is hard to experience the underrepresentation of our struggle in the media. Frankly speaking, I had been fighting with it for so long: I was filming everything, publishing it like crazy, especially during the first days, when there was no Internet. I wanted everyone to know about us and so that Borisov would become visible to our country. Since the news usually cover events in the big cities, you feel that your contribution isn't that meaningful.
It is also hard to live here, because of the environment and the general oppressive atmosphere. When your soul is bursting out all the time, you want to do something: protests, flags, fighting! — but you bump into silence.
When Roman Bondarenko was killed, the mourning period was announced, we had to stop at 12 noon — for a minute of silence, and then, at 9 p.m., there was a rally — to light a candle on your windowsill. I went out on the balcony at noon, even though I was sick. It was so creepy: people were walking on the streets with handbags, men with suitcases, someone was on the phone, and cars were driving. I looked at all that and thought: "My God, people, where do you live? What is happening? Why?" Same with the candles. There is no sense of solidarity and momentum, or something. I lit a candle and one of my acquaintances from the street nearby lit one as well. She wrote to me: "I lit it, but it seems that I was the one on the whole street with a candle in the window." And I understand her, sometimes it really seems like everyone around you (except yourself) just doesn't care. And it discourages you.
And what shall we do about all those people? What shall we do about the lack of initiative around us? I have been consciously doing all sorts of cultural activities in this city, after school and university times, since 2012 — for 8 years. During this time, it became clear that people here are ready to watch and be interested, but not to actively participate. In our dance community, we even published one post on the website, something like "How to stop watching our photos on social media and come dancing?" I mean, that kind of passive support is typical for people in Borisov, but to be involved in the process itself is something extraordinary.